I need to bitch. I am having serious problems and I don't like it.
My little sister Yvonne is pregnant. I saw her yesterday and she has decided to keep the baby. She is eighteen years old. She works at friggin Tim Hortons. What the hell was she thinking?
Personally I think her keeping the baby is the right thing to do. I don't beleive in abortion. I think its wrong unless it was rape. Other people do it but I wouldn't. I mean my other sister Pam has had a few abortions. Anyways though I don't really agree with adoption in her case either. Adoption is a great thing. It provides children with a chance to make something of themselves and gives them hopefully better lives. Thats just the thing though. There is no reason that this family can't raise that baby.
I'm sure alot of you out there are saying well Yvonne has to raise the baby. Yes she does but my family raises babies together. Its a family affair. These children are very social. I mean Dylan, Melissas baby, doesn't even call her mommy. He calls everyone mommy.
Anyways Yvonne can have this child and she can give it everything it needs. She just is stupid for getting pregnant so young. She needs to learn what birth control is. Well my mom has decided that it would be a good idea for me to adopt Yvonnes baby. What the hell am I going to do with a kid? Thing is I told mom I would if thats what Yvonnne wanted. But I breathe a sigh of relief when Yvonne says she wants to keep it. There is a reason why I don't have kids right now. I don't think I am emotionally ready for that.
I am the only daughter in my family that has not reproduced children. Its weird. I am one of the oldest. I am really tired of hearing though that I am the smart one and blah, blah, blah. I personally think that if I didn't have the medical problems that I do that I would have a few children myself.
So that leads me to think that well what the hell is wrong with me. I don't take my birth control like I should. In fact I am very bad at it. My sisters, all of them, as well as my mother breed like friggen rabbits. What the hell is wrong with me? If the doctor could reassure me that when I decide to have kids that I won't have a problem then I don't think this would bother me all that much. But it really really does.
Well thats enough of that. I am currently residing in St. Albert watching Heathers moms house while they are in Ontario. Well I had called Trevor a couple of weeks ago to let him know that I was going to be in St. Albert for a bit and that we should get together and do something. Well he tells me he is having a bbq that weekend. The words you should come or anything to that sort did not come out of his mouth. So when saturday rolled around I contemplated going over but decided to go out with Liz and Nicole instead. Well I talked to Trevor yesterday and he gave me shit for not going over. If he wanted me to go over he should have said something. Stupid boys.
So what else was bugging me. Oh yeah my car seems to have another leak in it. I went to work this morning and my car was steaming. Well I get here and look under the hood and I have lots of radiator fluid in the tank but its also all over my engine. That means something is leaking. I can't have this. I have to go to Calgary next weekend. I was supposed to go this weekend but if the car is being retarded then I can't. I can probably swing that but I really need to go down next weekend. That is Jeannies wedding. Since I am the one performing the ceremony I just can't not show up. Grrrrr. Why, Why, Why can't something work put probarly for me. Why does everything always come up. Why can't I just have plans to go somewhere and then not have to worry about it.
Today is a bad day and its not even ten o'clock. Shoot me now please.
9:06 a.m. on 2003-07-22
