so here is what i found out yesterday.
i havn't talked to lonny for just over a week and i have been getting wierd vibes from him lately. so he came online and i asked him whats going on? he tells me that he is seeing someone. i kinda had the feeling that he was but i think its kinda rude not to say anything to me. so thats over with.
so doing what i normally do i called trevor. i found out that he is getting married and couldn't be friggin happier. i can't beleive that. i was pretty stunned. i'm happy for him though. its just wierd. i guess i always thought he and i would end up together in the end. it was just a matter of time.
once again i was wrong. i'm starting to realize that all of my realtionships are onesided. i'm all into them and think things are going great and they are all like nope not so much.
i would like to know what i did in my life to not have anything go right for me. i mean really. i am a twenty five year old girl who is thirty thousand dollars in debt with a job that can't pay her bills so much so that she has to move back home with her parents. to top all of that off she can't manage to handle a realationship. everyone she gets into ends up horribly.
i mean i can't even get engaged and make it work.
charlene is feeling sorry for herself today.
9:17 a.m. on 2004-02-18
