so much is up in the air! i don't like it when things are up in the air. it just feels like everything is wishy washy right now. i made a decision that if Pat and Jenn agree then i will be moving up to grande prairie. they have to talk about it and decide on a whole bunch of things. the last thing that i want to do is cause any discomfort for them. they just got their own house and have the baby and all. maybe they just want to be that happy little family.
work is up in the air. i'm not sure that i want to work here anymore. they definitly don't pay me enough. i don't know. it just annoys me that i could be working in a grocery store for more money then i am making now. maybe i should just be looking for a different job here. its all so confusing.
my sister and i decided to redo the bathroom the other day. we were just going to paint and replace some fixtures and the lighting. we started on that and now ken has decided to rip out the shower and tub and replace it. this is a good thing as it needed to be done but very inconvinent timing. i guess the new tub and toilet and shower will be in today but who knows. we all know how my family is in finishing projects. this one they have to finish though as we definitly need the shower.
i was right about the whole adam thing. he had purchased me a hours massage at his cousins salon last week. i used it as he said he was doing that just as a friend. upon further prying on my part it turns out that he had a slight ulterior motive. oh well. he and i talked about it and he knows that its never ever going to happen. so that hopefully is resolved with.
steve has been reading this diary. i told him about it a few days ago. it doesn't really bother me as its my diary and i will write what i want, he knows that. anyways, he stopped by work today. we got to talking about some stuff. stuff i never really even realized. its odd how much you think you know and then realize that you just don't. i'm curious to find out more but i fiqure i should probably just leave it alone. you all know me though, i just can't do that. that boy is so vague sometimes. makes life difficult sometimes.
i recieved a check in the mail from the government yesterday. i totally wasn't expecting it. apparently i still had some student loans lying around that i could claim. so they sent me a check for just over $300.00. i'm pretty happy about that as i could definitly use it. that and liz said that gail has sent our damage deposit in the mail. yay. i could use that hundred dollars too. i have now put $250.00 in my savings account as a moving fund. if i don't move then its a camping fund. i'm excited about the summer. i really want to just get away. it will be good.
i really want to go paint pottery. who wants to go with me. i think it would be fun and there are lots of places in st. albert. i don't think it can be that much money.
well i should get back to work. hope everyone is having a good day. talk to you later.
3:33 p.m. on 2004-05-06
